so on monday i decided that this would be my mantra for the week.
to me, it applies to all areas of life - the 'feeling better' part is, which is brought on by exercise.
lately i have not been feeling 'strong' at all.
my back has been causing me a LOT of pain. it takes me a lot to push thru the pain physically. however it takes me a whole lot more to push thru it mentally.
it has just been bringing me down. once the pain starts it takes a while for it to go, and nothing other than sitting down/laying down relieves it.
by monday lunch time i was in tears, and ended up in finding a physio. she is actually located opposite the agent's office too, which makes getting to her easy!!!
so off i waddle, literally waddle, to see the physio. she tells me that the muscles around my hips are weak. the right side of my pelvis has tilted forwards, which is 'normal' during pregnancy i think. however, my left side.......well it has dropped. dropped straight down. no bloody wonder i'm in pain all the bloody time.
so she worked with my for an hour, including lifting the left side of my pelvis up. she taped my lower back, and gave me exercises to do. i could almost walk properly! i felt almost human again!
by tuesday afternoon tho my back was sore, so i took it easy....again! had a check-up with my obstetrician on wednesday morning, and she thinks lbm3 is small, as i'm measuring small. i grew 1cm in 2 weeks, as opposed to 2cm in the fortnight previously. so we're booked in for an ultrasound on thursday. hoping it's the same as bubble, as this happened when i was pregnant with her.
took the tape off wednesday night and saw the physio on thursday afternoon. i can actually walk properly now!!!! she said my left side is good now, my right side still needs a bit of help. so have to do some strengthening exercises which is cool. i can move, roll over in bed, step sideways, MOVE without it hurting! yay!
so after an awesome step class this morning, i am back to feeling strong!
on top of the pain, this week has been tough.
granddad is not good at all. mum was here till yesterday helping nan look after him, even tho he's in hospital. mum said she'll be back down next week. he's in palliative care so it's not an exactly positive time.
the sale of my unit fell thru. so upset about that, as that would have helped us out extremely. especially as we're coming up to christmas and a new baby! ah well.....hopefully another fish will take a bite...
the bubble was heard using the 'f' word at daycare. not good. not nice. i know the agent and i are her examples. and yes, she's heard us say that word. we are not perfect parents. so it's not nice to be told that when i go to pick her up.
so hoping next week is a lot better for us. full of more positive news rather than negative.
and this will be next week's mantra....
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