feeling, well, weak

Weak. That's how I've been feeling lately. The pain in my back from this baby is really wreaking havoc with my mind, my emotions, everything!

I know that whilst pregnant women tend to become a little emotional. I'm well aware of that!

This is different tho. I remember these feelings after bug arrived. The ones who had a voice in my head telling me 'you can't do it...'.

That's how I've been feeling and thinking. That I simply can not do this. And it all happens at the end of the day. Right when I'm getting the girls ready for bed. The little voice gets louder, mainly cos a new thought has entered my mind recently: I'm sick of doing this on my own.

And I am. That much is true. I wish the agent worked better, more family-friendly hours. However his chosen profession states his best work hours are after hours.

Anyway.

Weak is how I've been feeling and I am so glad I re-read a saying not so long ago: you never regret doing a workout. The only workout you regret is the one you do NOT do.

That saying is what has made me go to the gym every day last week and every day so far this week. I've felt strong and in control after my workouts. and that's why I do them!!

So whilst the pain is really becoming unbearable, I am proving to myself that I am strong enough to tackle it head-on. And that was a problem I'd been having, that I couldn't block the pain from my mind. That was super frustrating.

But again, exercise pulled me thru. It might hurt a little while I do the workout but that pain is nothing compared to how disappointed I feel when I don't go to the gym.





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