Title? I can't think of one...

So today I struggled. Big time. Even a 3 hour nap with bug didn't do much good.

Yesterday I felt strong. Alive. In control. Capable of doing just about anything even tho my back hurt like hell by lunch time.

I smashed out over 609 calories in fat burner on Monday morning. I've not done that many in a long time! I felt great! I was running. I was doing the high options. Granted I couldn't keep doing them the whole time but I still did them!!

Today? I don't know what happened. I went all prepared to do pump and step back-to-back. That didn't happen.

I struggled. I struggled with pump big time. I no longer lay down during triceps as the nerve just gives me hell when I do. I think I'm going to have to stop doing the chest track vertically too. I could feel my lower back hurting during squats. I felt the nerve pull during lunges. And it was a lunge track I like!

It sucked. Even laying down to do abs/stretch if hurt.

I'm over the pain. Over the nerve. I am yet to work out how to mentally block it out. I just can't seem to and it's beginning to get me down. Badly. I even rang the agent and cried to him. As I said to him 'how often does pain reduce me to tears?!' not often. Had a chiropractor tell me once my tolerance level for pain was pretty high!

I'm over it. Over the pain defeating me. Over how long it takes for my body to recover.

And over not know what do about it, nor knowing if there is anything I can do about it. I think that's the most frustrating part.

People suggest a physio. Or a massage. They sound great but I think it would be a case of when I needed them most I wouldn't be able to have one.

Anywayz.

Tomorrow is a new day. Actually it already is tomorrow. Whoops.

Tomorrow I'm going to get things done.

I'm going to do the meal plan for this week and next.
I'm going to make the appointments I need to.
I'm going to tick off some jobs.
I'm going to smash body attack as hard as I can!
And most importantly...
I'm gonna love my girls as much as I can!

And the agent too of course...!

So now I need sleep. Badly. Argh! Another thing I hate - how tired I am cos of how late I get to bed!!!

And I'm going to remember this:



And this:



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