goals....resolutions....hopeful outcomes...

oh i don't know what to call them.

anyway, things i want to achieve/do/have happen/whatever word you want to use in 2012...

* have this baby! the agent is really hoping it comes on his birthday i think. which is january 4, our due date. so it'd be pretty cool if it did come then, and shared it's birthday with it's daddy! and also it's cousin. january 5 and it'd share it's birthday with it's grandfather, the agent's dad.  just soon....i'm a bit over the pain it gives me when it sits in a certain way and is right on one of my nerves. it HURTS!!

* i want all of us to have breakfast together every morning of the week. dinner is not viable, as that time of the evening is best for the agent to be making calls and seeing clients. we've tried him coming home and then going back to work, but he still loses time at the office and as much as it was nice having him home for that short while, i think it upset bubble and bug when he left. so i'm voting we cut out the whole 'dinner as a family' thing the agent's mother seems to insist on us doing and we do 'breakfast as a family' instead!

* i want to remember people's birthdays and send them cards! as much as i agree with my mum - cards can be a complete waste at times - it is nice to receive them. i've bought myself a wall calendar, and have written family birthdays in it already. not everyone, just immediate family. the $2 shop has great cards for all occasions, and for less than $2!! bargain! will stock up on them next time i'm at the shop, so as i have the cards on hand and ready to post out!

* bubble and bug will be going to daycare 2 days per week, same as last year. i have decided i will relax about the state of the house on the days they are here. so long as it is liveable and safe, i am going to aim to enjoy them. if they make a mess, so what? the days they aren't here i'll clean like a demon. they both had so much fun being outside with my MIL, their new big bubble wands and a bucket of water. i want to do that. i feel as tho i don't 'play' with them enough. so in 2012, i'm going to make that change. i will play with them more. sure i will have to focus on lbm3 as well, but i'm not going to forget my girls and leave them to their own devices. i haven't been able to interact with them as much cos of this beach ball on my front, so i look forward to being in there, in the action with them again.

* i want the agent and i to have a date night, at least twice a month. more if possible. he wants the same thing too. i know cos he told me! as he said, we may not go out but we'll still spend time together, doing something without the kidlets. well, except for lbm3 for the first few months!

i think the rest of the things i hope to achieve i will break down in to separate posts....such as health and fitness, family, money, career (dare i dream?!)...

goodbye 2011......hello 2012!!!

today is the last day of 2011.

wow. can not believe a whole year has gone by.

feels like it went by pretty fast, and then this past week has sorta dragged....

maybe that's cos we're still waiting for lbm3 to make his/her grand entrance? maybe cos of all the christmas stuff which has happened? maybe cos bubble & bug are not here and it is so unusually quiet i seriously don't know what to do with myself?

i think it's a combo of all those things!!!

as always, there is talk about new year resolutions.

i don't think i've ever made a resolution, and stuck to it as much as i'd like!!

instead of 'resolutions' i'm making 'goals' for 2012. and this ties in with the 26 things i want to achieve before i turn 26. which is a post i haven't finished, cos i can't think of 26 things!!

so here's to 2012. i'm planning on it it being bigger and better than 2011. i mean, the arrival of a baby in the very near future? not much can top that!!!

hope you get more out of 2012 than you did 2011 - all positive of course!

taking back control

I ended up in crying on the agent last night when he got home.

I'm over his long hours, even tho I know exactly why he's doing the hours he's doing, 7 days a week - to buy us a house. I just get lonely and bored, especially of an evening.

As he pointed out, without wanting to create an argument, I need to view the glass as half full not half empty.

I am so blessed in so many other ways!! Focus on those, dammit!!

Easier said than done? Of course! Humans are naturally a negative bunch whether we like it or not.

However one way in which I do know how I can feel better is to get a bit of control back in my life.



So today in going to go to the gym. And once the girls and I get home I'm going to get to work ticking items off my to-do list I created a whole 5 minutes ago!!




I do not expect to get all of this list completed today. There are things which I haven't even put on it!

To get just several completed will help my state of mind no end. Waiting for this baby to come without being able to actually plan anything is not good for a control freak like myself!!

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november...

i didn't write a lot at all during november.

mum and dad were here a fair bit. mum's dad, my granddad, was unwell and going downhill. not at break-neck speed however not slowly either. which was a relief.

he died on november 16.

this is my granddad....

yes, my granddad looks like colonel sanders...

he played up to it too! he was a school teacher and students would call him the 'colonel' 

and he would wear black-rimmed glasses and a white dinner coat. he loved it!!

it was a relief really. we were praying he wouldn't suffer, and he didn't.

i really do not like the time in between a person dying and the funeral. time for the family involved stands still, yet life still goes on. it sucks.

so november wasn't too great.

the agent and i went to the awards night for the real estate company he works for.

us at dinner...

the agent won 'sales person of the year' which is based on how much commission the sales person makes per quarter.

he was the 'winner' out of all the sales people who work for the company!! that's my hubby!! he's been in the top 2% of century21 real estate agents. top 2% in the world that is. 

i'm just a wee bit proud of him!!!

we had a great night. mum and dad looked after bubble and bug for us. hoping next year they'll look after all 3 kidlets so that the agent and i can stay in the city and party on with everyone! this years awards was held at the hilton in the city, and everyone went down to the marble bar to keep on partying. it'd be nice to do that next year, as we are getting to know a lot of people from the other offices which is great!!

i'm now 35 weeks pregnant with lbm3. my pelvis is a lot better. physio is helping me. really hoping the pain goes away after i give birth like it did after my first 2 pregnancies. not long to go now! i've gained 8kgs. not sure whether to be happy about that or worried. books say by now i should have gained 10-15kg. i wasn't over weight before falling pregnant. 

my doctor sent us for an extra ultrasound a month ago. she measured my tummy and said "you're small. go have a scan and make sure baby is growing ok." 

so we did.....we were 32 weeks 5 days when we had the scan. baby was measuring 34 weeks. 

yikes!!!!

the ultrasound technician (who did all my scans with bubble and bug) said lbm3 will probably be about the same size as bug was at birth - 3.49kg and 51.5cm long. hope lbm3 doesn't get any bigger!!!!

so not long to go now. both bubble and bug were 11 days early based on the due date my obstetrician gave me. so anywhere from 3-5 weeks to go.

i've realised that as much as i love being pregnant, i am looking forward to starting to the next chapter. i know what happens next, and i'm sorta sick of waiting for it to happen! i'm not scared of labour or birth. i simply cannot wait to meet the little person!! and i think the agent and i have finally agreed on a full boys name! i still have 2 girl names i really like, just not sure how the agent feels about them....but we are hoping it's a boy. actually no. we're hoping it's a baby and that it's healthy and has all the right bits in the right places and all it's bits are working - eyes, ears, mouth, nose, fingers toes, lungs everything. i don't mind if it's a boy or a girl.

so long as it's not 'food' which is what bubble decided was in my tummy a few weeks ago. she looked at me and simply said 'mummy, i think it's food.' yeah no baby....mumma hasn't eaten that much!!!

christmas wish list

i love christmas!! not long to go now. hoping to put up the christmas decorations this weekend - all depends on the agent's work schedule!

here's my 'wish list' - some items i really hope are under the tree for me come christmas morning! others i'd love to see there, IF we had oodles of moolah....

michelle's new book. i have all her others, must add this to the collection!

iPad2 in white + smart cover in light blue

tiffany & co flower ring. i have drooled over this for a long time. love it!

tiffany & co 'return to tiffany' bracelet.

maternal america "tummy tuck nursing top" in navy. available from queenbee.com.au

boori "urbane bassinette" available from babykingdom.com.au

poor lbm3 has no where to sleep at the moment....! eek!

dashbaby clutch in black available from babykingdom.com.au

'a stylish way to carry your baby wipes'!!! ha! love it!

a lorna jane gift card to the amount of....however much someone thinks i'm worth!!!

i've bought a few items of lj clothes whilst being pregnant - they're my 'goal outfits'. x2 pants and x3 tops i will ONLY wear once i am back at my pre-baby weight.

david turpin & native union's pop! blue handset.

you plug it in to your iPhone and use it as a phone!! love it!! whole lot easier to jam between my ear and shoulder when i need 2 hands to do something!!

just a few things.....if only i was like scrooge mcduck, and could swim in my money....