feeling blah...

not sure if i'm still tired from yesterday or what. 

i'll post about father's day '11 later. it was a fantastic day, the whole day too not just some of it. all the photos are on my iphone, so i'll have to do it from there. it involved a big bike ride, and i'm wondering if i'm just still tired from that?

i was going to do fitbox @ 6am with sarah today, but when i woke up i realised my lower back hurt. i think that was just an excuse tho. no, i KNOW it was an excuse. i should have gone tho, maybe it would have put me in a better mood. 

there's a quote i love: 

the most important workout you do is the one you don't want to do

and it is soooooooooo true. i did attack one morning when i really really didn't want to. and i felt so better afterwards, not just cos of the endorphins which happen when you workout, but cos i'd done it when my mind was telling me i didn't need to! as mish bridges says "JFDI!" just freakin' do it!

so maybe i need to start going for a walk outside of a morning. still a bit cool in the morning at 6am, but the sun is starting to get up earlier anyway. and i love that time of morning! 

i dont know....part of me thinks 'you're pregnant! stop pushing yourself to preform at the level you were before you became pregnant!'

and that another part of me says 'you're pregnant! so what! why should that stop you from doing something you love, which is moving?!! keep moving, you'll be in better shape during the pregnancy, and hopefully at the end too. and it'll push baby out quicker too!'

i honestly don't know what to do :(

i think i'm scared of becoming too tired and pushing myself too hard. i don't want to hurt myself and then not be able to exercise or move at all. i'm going to lower my weights in pump now, as my lower back can't handle the squat weight i normally use. but that's ok, so long as i can still squat!

so feeling rather blah today. bubble and bug were cra-ay-zy today. don't know what the go was with the 2 of them, running around chasing each other and screaming a lot.....as you do! it was nice cos they were playing together, they were just very loud!

hoping tomorrow will be a better day. can not complain about the weather tho - absolutely glorious!